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My journey to being Nkechi’s mum is only one part of my life where I’ve had to obtain things by aggressive faith. There is nothing good that I’ve ever desired that I haven’t had to purposefully switch on my aggressive faith mode to receive.
I have faith stories, from university admissions, to graduating with a second class upper, Landing jobs, getting a car, hosting conferences and outreaches, winning souls, influencing/possessing territorial dominion, publishing books, getting married and now having children. Everyone of them when shared would provoke anyone to trust God.
However, while these stories have the tendency to portray me as a faith expert, I am far from being one. This is because whether God answers or not he is God. My situation is not enough to validate the credibility of who he is as a prayer answering God. I therefore consider it a privilege to be found in valleys where I need to trust him and use my faith. They are opportunities for me to grow and experience dimensions of God that I wouldn’t have, had things come easier.
I have longed come to a place in my life where I believe and unashamedly say this to God,
I love you, whether you do it, take it, give me or don’t. I will serve you forever, regardless.
I have been tried and tested on that level, I will leave it to God to say if I’ve passed or not.
However, I am convinced that God wants every believer to relate with him on that level. It is a level that proves that you are not there for his gifts but for him.
If God doesn’t give me what I’m waiting on him for, would I still love, praise or serve him? Whatever your heart answers, make sure it is the truth.
Based on that truth, re-engineer your relationship with him to include a solid loyalty that is unwavered by what he does or doesn’t do. For it is at that level, that surrendered place, that you will receive much more than you can ever ask, think or imagine.
Would you ?